Hello! This is Sylvera from Tarja Turunen Fan Site! Here is the letter of Tarja for her official website, and below that, the letter she sent to our site! Thank you! Remember that Tarja needs us! www.fan-sites.org/tarja
"Since last Sunday morning, I have been asked to express my position by
magazines, newspapers, radio and TV stations, fan clubs and fans from
Finland and from all over the world. So many in total that it is
physically impossible for me to find the time to reply to them all
individually. Hence I decided to put down a couple of words in this text
to let my fans, family and friends and the public know how I feel after
the recent events.
This is a moment of grief and pain and I find it very hard to speak.
At the moment I am in Argentina. I hope you can understand that after
this shocking life change comparable to a divorce, I didn’t want to stay
alone at home in Finland. My husband had booked his tickets to Argentina
many months ago and I decided to travel with him at the last minute.
But the fact that I am in Argentina and the long distance should of
course not be an excuse not to comment on the situation.
Last Friday 21st of October was a day the whole band had been waiting
for a long time.
Practice started early in the morning. I was very sick and nervous
because of the fact that I was not even able to sing during the rehearsals.
Also nervous because the concert programme was going to be longer than
usual for a Nightwish concert. Furthermore we were going to have a
special guest to perform with us, more wardrobe changes for myself than
usual and for the first time big screens and bigger production on stage.
Not to forget that the concert was going to be recorded and filmed.
The five of us had finally made it to play Hartwall Arena.
Even though every one of us knew in advance that the concert was sold
out, finally on stage, we saw that screaming, applauding and standing
people took every seat. The feeling was unbelievable.
I will never forget how amazing it was to experience the Finnish
audience’s gorgeous reception.
When the concert was over, I cried of happiness on stage. Happy tears
because I was able to do my best as always even though I was sick. Happy
tears because our long tour got the greatest possible ending and happy
tears because of the best recognition an artist can get: applause and
smiling faces.
At that moment I didn’t know that I was going to cry again soon.
After the concert, the guys of the band invited me backstage to join
them and asked me to hug altogether. This felt strange as it was the
same kind of hug we traditionally came together for before every
concert. That tradition remained between us, even though the tension and
increasing pressure already existed since a long period of time.
The immediate feeling in me was to thank them, which I did loudly but
without any reply.
After this, they gave me a letter and asked me to read it the following
day. The same letter that is now public.
I read it and was shocked.
I didn’t know what to say and still at the moment that I am writing
these lines, I don’t.
I sense great anger in that letter and I continue to have very confused
feelings about it, but I don’t want to reply to this anger with an even
greater anger. Private matters should never be taken to the public.
I know this moment we are going through is very sad for everybody,
including the guys.
While there would have been so many different possibilities and ways to
express what they wanted to tell me with the letter, I remain unable to
understand the way they chose to handle this. I am sorry that the guys
got me so wrong. I don’t recognize myself at all from the way they
described me.
They mentioned mean things about me, but the fact that they involved
Marcelo, my husband, crossed the line. He is the man I love, my friend
and has been my biggest support over the last years.
We have been band mates for 9 years, experienced good times and not so
good ones. I thought I knew them, but I was wrong.
Still everything that has happened is not enough to make them evil in my
eyes.
Now comes a time to calm down and reflect upon all of this.
I need to put my feelings together again and I promise to come back to
public soon.
I will announce a press conference where I will be talking about my
future plans. This doesn’t mean that you should expect this conference
to be an instrument to attack anybody. It won’t.
The wonderful music we created together won’t be touched by recent events.
Thanks a lot to all the people who are supporting me during these sad
times. My family, friends, colleagues, and the great number of fans. I
love you and I really feel I have not failed you.
Tarja"
Dear Lily, Sylvera Diana and Purity,
I don´t have words to express my feelings at the moment. I am devastated.
This thing happened in a way that I didn´t have a slight chance to give my
opinion about it. I got fired out of a band that represents the last 9 years
of my life and I am very sad about it. It has been very cruel the way the
band handled this in public. This doesn´t change the fact that we were doing
amazing music together, but I will never forget the fact that they didn´t
give me the chance to say good bye for the people as a Nightwish singer.
I love you and I really hope to see you soon in my concerts. Thank you very
much for your kind words and support. I will never forget you.
Love,
Tarja
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